Thom Bierdz loved his schizophrenic brother. Despite Troy's erratically cruel behavior, his years of creative threats were not taken seriously. Then the unthinkable happened. Now Thom must delve into hospital records, police reports and his own painful memories in a search for understanding. In this honest, soul-searching account, nothing is omitted as one of TV's most beloved soap stars follows a path towards the ultimate act of forgivness.