Postponing Suicide

One starry and uncharacteristically cold October night, not many years ago, I was on my way home from visiting a friend. Instead of being elated from spending time with a person dear to me, I felt miserable. This was a new type of misery though, one so deeply rooted within me it cast a shadow on all the few glimmers of light in my life. Misery and gloominess were not new emotions to me - I had been severely unhappy before. I had also been depressed before (self-diagnosed of course) but that night I discovered that my prior emotions did not even remotely resemble the deep wretchedness I felt that night. Although the downward spiral I was going through had already started a few months earlier and every aspect of life seemed to be turned against me. Frankly, I felt as if the universe itself was repelling me. However, it was only when walking there on that leaf clad road, under the beautiful stars, that it hit me with full force - I did not want to be alive anymore.


This is a short book, inside into the mind of a suicidal person. A majority of the proceeding of this book will be donated to suicide prevention work and the rest will be used for the author to get out of the turmoil that has been part of the reason the author is suicidal from the very beginning.

Help now, you never know when you might be the one who needs help.