The Positive Side of Chemo

In 2012 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. How could this be? I ate only natural and organic foods, I exercised daily, I’m fit, and I don’t drink alcohol or eat processed foods! I tried to do everything right throughout my life to keep my body dis-ease free, so why this? Why now? Even if it was some toxin in the air, surely my healthy body was strong enough to fight it. But a strong body starts with a strong mind, and as I went through the chemotherapy treatments, I had a revelation of sorts; I realized that I should have taken care of my thoughts, and I didn’t. You see, I know without a doubt that by body was toxic because my thoughts were toxic, and no perfect diet was going to work as long as I kept thinking about the negatives of my past mistakes and regrets. It’s been proven that we are what we think, and that our life today is a product of our past thoughts. I knew this, and although I tried throughout the years to change my thought life, I could never quite get myself to be a more positive and happy thinker. I knew this drastic experience would change me, but I had to be on board with the change. So I began to write my thoughts onto paper, and the more I wrote, the better I felt. Then I taught myself how to draw using my computer and mouse. I was amazed of what was coming out of my mind! I began to feel transformed from the inside out. Going through chemo started out very rough for me, but through the purging of my thoughts onto paper and the distraction of my artwork, I breezed through all of chemo treatments and radiation. Today I look back at the horror of what I went through. I have no sadness, no regret, and no angry sensations in my heart. I am very careful of what I think about now and I don’t allow any negative thoughts to stay inside of my head for very long, especially if they are self-destructing thoughts. Of course I have bad days and good days, but now the bad days don’t last for weeks, months, and even years! I’ve started taking Yoga now and I absolutely l love it! Not just for the great physical benefits, but for the peace it has brought to my soul. Yep, it was a rough voyage, but this is what I had to go through to bring my life into balance; and for this I am truly grateful!
This is my mantra: “If you want to be happy, love your life no matter what the circumstances may be. Happy or sad…choose one.”