Lost in Love: An unstructured short story

Written in the beginning of the 90s, Lost in Love is a short story of losing yourself in the search for love. It's a story of long-distance relationship before sms, skype and emails entered the picture. It's a story of self-doubt, of innocence lost and about finding your feet once more among loose ends.

The road to self discovery is not much unicorns and rainbows: it can be tragic in at least equal parts.


[- I'll write! I'll call you!

I smile bravely, my face feels frozen and I'm blinking frenetically.
Darned tube-train, why aren't you leaving? No!
Give me a few more seconds!
The doors finally close and you are waving. I wave back.
The train starts to move, I'm fighting back the tears.
Now it is too late
too late for me to say something
too late for you to change your mind and jump off.
I throw myself around the corner behind the stone pillar
to the platform on the other side and use the wall to hold myself upright
my insides all in turmoil and state of shock.
The moment I tried to avoid
the moment I did not want to believe would come, it's here, now,
and I'm feeling SO empty.]