Broken Bicycle & A Ruined Love Life (Phases of the Moon Book 5)

Two or five or maybe seven years in the making, this zine is about being in an abusive relationship with an alcoholic and subsequently escaping. It is about trauma and memory and addiction and "recovery" (and may be triggering).

"I was drinking when I first met him; it seemed like everyone was drinking. In the first months of our relationship, I took him to the bar to play drunkbingo and fall off chairs, we went to houseshows and sneaked pulls from bottles of rotgut hidden in bathrooms. We went to a party where I wanted to show him off; I wanted all my girlfriends to approve. We sat on the rooftop and took swigs of cheap whiskey and listened to Outkast and lit bottlerockets. I tried to match him shot for shot — I tried to keep up. If I could drink that much and hold myself together, then maybe he's not that bad off after all. I ended up puking in the bathtub all night. He held my hair back and washed my face, helped my girlfriends drag me to a couch, and then he slept outside in the dirt and when I woke up he was gone."