The Seon Way to Enlightenment

Life was a sea of bitterness. I thought about suitcide several times. From an objective point of view, mine were not such bad circumstances, but I don't know why I felt so hard and lonely in my mind.... I have trained through a thousand day abstinence Tao training to be enlightened. ... I am looking for companions who will join the course of Tao toward enlightenment through breathing training.