The many letters of my heart

I thought it was all over , looking out the window with my drink in my hand and watching the star's and looking at the moon i knew it wasn't over i wanted to end something that meant so much to me , that was my everything, even though i needed to end it, all i couldnt and i kept saying it over and over that im done with it im over it cause theres nothing else to say or do , im far from over it i guess you can say .. For the last couple days i started to think and miss him even more. I shut my eyes thinking of how to deal with everything how to deal with all these emotions these, feelings that kept coming back and yet i couldnt, i cant get rid of these feelings that keep coming back.. and i dont think you can , When you fall inlove your life changes , you see stuff different , you think different and you want to be everything that person wants even if sometimes it means losing yourself, you want that person to love you back , you want to give anything to be with that person forever , and sometimes if its true love it will happen ,it will find a way to work out , but for me what im saying is if anyone has ever felt this kind of feeling there not easy to get rid of people may think they are but there really not. Its like after awhile you get sick of all the "What if's" and all the " But maybe if i" cause you cant change what has already happen theres just no way even if you want to soo bad . . This is a Crazy, Truthful, Loving, Unbelieveable, Heartbreaking, Lustful, and the most Painful thing anyone could go through .. to be so heartbroken that you dont even see yourself making it another day cause you cant find or see the Light . Lets begin this story , one you'll never forget or one you'll never want to remember .