A River of Dreams - Memoir of a Pathetic Life

Imagine going through life knowing that you were responsible for your best friend's death when you were only seven years old. And because of all the guilt, you never felt worthy of any happiness in your life. Now imagine this guilt taking you down the dark and lonely roads of sexual perversion, drug addiction, mental illness, self-hatred, twisted love affairs, career sabotage, debilitating loneliness and much more. Now imagine forty two years later you find out that you were NOT responsible for your best friend's death and you have just come to the realization that all of the self-destructive acts you committed over the past four decades were originated from crippling guilt that was inflicted on you for no reason at all. What would you do? How would you feel?

This is an incredible, provocative and riveting story of one man's struggles with his inner demons and his fight to stay alive. A truly sad and pathetic life but a life worth living. I am still hanging on for dear life that I will one day come out of the darkness and live among rainbows...Because God is good. And He can save anyone from the depths of despair...Even a poor, pathetic wretch like me. A true page-turner, front to back. Written in such graphic detail but with an incredible amount of humor along the way. Read this book and than tell your friends. At the very least you will be thoroughly entertained and my story will help others realize that perhaps their life is not as bad as they think. And perhaps my story will save some lives in the process. God Bless.