Heaven's Light: Inspired Verse For The New Paradigm

In the summer of 1992, after years of battling depression, I lost the war. I had been bitterly unhappy for many years over the separation from my children. This chronic unhappiness began to eat away at my health because there was an emptiness in my heart that nothing could fill. Loveless marriages and stressful jobs never brought the financial security I thought I needed to take care of my boys. Without my children I was empty, which perpetuated my ill health.
I was trapped in a vicious cycle of hopelessness. I sank deeper and deeper into hellish situations until I finally hit bottom. You could call it a nervous breakdown and you might be right. For me, it was the miracle that would change my life. After screaming in anger and blaming others I sobbed uncontrollably and blamed myself.
I cried until I had no more tears. This emotional rollercoaster finally came to a stop and I was nowhere.
I can only describe the place I found myself in as a kind of void. It was void of feelings, void of past, void of future; a peaceful numbness, like the eye of a tornado, eerily calm. It was here that I lost all track of time and sequence of this experience. There may have been hours or days in between the parts that I can remember.
I have no recollection of eating or an awareness of other physical needs. Even though I had been agnostic for most of my adult life, I picked up a pen and wrote a letter to God. It began, “Dear God” and contained the personal questions I had been crying out for days. Then, within this void of no thought, there was a surrender beyond my understanding. I cannot tell you how much time had passed until I began to receive answers to the questions that were asked in my letter. Time had no meaning in the void.
The answers came in the form of flowing verses of poetry. They flowed through my pen as though they were writing themselves. They were each titled and complete in verse. Though the words were simple and clear, I did not comprehend their true meaning until many years later. For several days I went in and out of dreams. Many were waking dreams in which I would seem to be in one place and then another without actually going to sleep. I experienced many miracles. For me it was my “Knowing.” Something outside the control of my conscious mind had communicated with me. Though I was hopeless, I was writing words of love and hope. Though I did not believe in God, these beautiful writings assured me that God believed in me. I would never again trust in only what I could see. I now held a Knowing beyond any belief. For the next several years my life opened to a journey that I had no idea I was on. New levels of understanding about my unexplainable experience came to light Through new information shared in books songs and movies, I began to get a glimpse the meaning of Miracles. I began to see that we were all being shown the Love of God through lessons of forgiveness. As I studied the works of Dr. Deepak Chopra, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, Marianne Williamson, and Louise Hay, I found that the spiritual principles being taught by these wonderful writers were the same messages the Heaven’s Light Verses contained.
I began to hear about channeled books and I became aware that many others had experienced miraculous interventions. The new visionaries such as James Redfield, Neale Don Walsch and Gary Renard had been inspired through their own miracles to bring these same messages of hope. In my heart I longed only for the communion with my Source, I had experienced that summer. My search for the Divine finally led me to A Course In Miracles. As I found the inner peace taught by A Course In Miracles, I gained a richer understanding of what I had been given. After almost two decades, I have been inspired to share the gift of Heaven’s Light. And so it is.
May the Peace of God be with you,
Nelda J. Ramey