“I can’t do relationships. It’s all I could offer you right now.†He said, sounding as if he’s about to lose the biggest gamble of his life. Right, it’s just a gamble.
It may not mean anything for him, but to me, there’s nothing that could be bigger deal than losing my purity to a guy I didn’t even marry. It was so unfair for me. But what really broke my heart was that agreement he’s been trying so hard to convince me that I needed.
“You can’t… even if it’s with me?†I asked him with an obvious tone of sadness in my voice.
God, please make him decline me. I wasn’t going to be able to handle that. I wanted him so much that I gave him my all.
“I want you… with all my being, but it’s who I am.†He answered with so much resentment for himself.
“So we’ll be like friends with benefits?†I asked him. Good thing that I just read an article about it last Wednesday. At least I got a bigger and wider understanding about it.
He sighed. He ran his hand through his hair, and sighed again. “Yes, precisely...â€